hahaha.
Suicide phase indeed. When did you think havily or attempt all that? 7th grade? I felt that way for at least 2 years in middle school. Not because of the other kids being mean to me, they were very good mannered to me, only a few minor instances of badness.. but it was when I realised that the world is just a proccess to condition us to buy, sell, and chase some "dream" that doesn't exist. It was when I realised that no matter how informed people were, they would still do ugly stuff just to be "cool" or "different in an extreem way." It was when I realised that the human race had no population control short of a massive famine, massive outbreak of disease or serverly drastic war. It was when I realised the world has gone away and all that is left is this mess of humans who no longer tend the earth as the bible had famed us to be charged with, but had taken control of it like some kind of slave master. It made me so sad to know that I was part of a system that was destroying everything just for fleeting moments of entertainment.
Of course... now I partake in many of those terrible things I couldn't stand... the little things, the proccess. It's alarming to think that some one is more worried about their image then the cleanliness of their environment or the conservation of water, air and food.
Of course... I was also born in 1981 when there was a drought. We had to take showers less than 2 minnutes because if we didn't then we wouldn't have water. We had to eat only what we needed because if we didn't then we wouldn't be able to eat next week. We had to keep our environment clean because if we didn't the already dwindling wildlife would die out even more.
I could go on but it's not really worth depressing anyone just to convey that realistic point in my life.
Thanks for the poems Last Wish. :-)
