NFY became god after HUBBA requested that he remorted instead of maxing then stealing from n00bs. She had very well meaning intentions, but he took the idea and ran.
Hobbes quit admin around Christmas time, GE isn't really on anymore. Maybe you aren't aware that Taurik is the newest admin.
You say you excel in TRPG or the real world... I really do hope for your sake that you can show the same dedication to a lost cause in real life.
As for saying Particle is better than that... He is better than that, he is better than you could ever hope to be. You go off and make enemies with the nice people and unsavory woman about Hobbes (who abused NFY with his admin powers more than you could ever imagine doing with your precious "all powerful" character). HUBBA and GE and Taurik get admin because they deserve it, they are fair and honest (well, maybe not Taurik when he needs to max a bot
). But essentially, when you get right down to it, they aren't the following:
1. Egotistical pricks
2. Unable to let go and face reality
3. Only nice when it suits their ends
4. Prone to crying like babies when something gets difficult
Notice that you fit all of those.... Go ahead and post about how Taurik isn't #3, but let me go ahead and remind you that he gives everyone a fair chance to begin with. A chance you abused and pretty much made a mockery of. He had every right to call you out for the asshole you are. I would say you pretty much outrank everyone (inlcuding NFY) on the jackass meter.